"FACINGFACES 2002 - 04" SELECTED POETRY (Part 2)

Shattered pieces

There's nothing but shattered pieces
my china cup has paid the price
I spent too much at the store today
and his reaction wasn't nice

The kids complained and fussed
I could feel impending doom
He was tired and didn't care
now they're crying in their room

I cower and listen in numb despair
while his curses fill my ears
He's got my throat, I cannot breathe
my eyes well up with tears

"If only you didn't make me mad!"
I know that's what he'll say
I'd run and hide and take the kids
but I'd never get away

He's sitting there, his fire has died
pretending nothing fared
I stand and face him, cup in hand
I've never been so scared

"You see this cup?" I asked him
"So fragile and complete?"
I threw it down in one swift blow
and glass flew at his feet

He stared at me in disbelief
as I finally took a stand
"This cup is me, each broken piece,
I wish you'd understand!"

"Some of the pieces can be fixed
with patience and some glue,
but some of these are just too small
this cup will never be new."

"Each time you say a hateful word
each time you grab my arm,
My mind and heart are shattered
and you'll never undo the harm."

He told me I was crazy,
and I'd better clean up the mess
I guess the lesson here was lost
and so am I, I guess

I found the strength to leave one day
but it took too long to get free
A shattered cup is my reminder
of the life he took from me

The pain is still too real to me
even though he's not around
He still finds ways to hurt me
and throw me to the ground

My life is shattered pieces
but at least I can know this:
Someday God will fix my cup
but who will take care of his?


Ever Crying Eyes
To the tune of Bette Davis Eyes

They treated you like gold,
but then to your surprise
Their words turned bitter cold
You've got ever crying eyes
They'll raise a hand to strike you
But to others seem nice
Make sure the marks don't show
You' ve got ever crying eyes

And they'll hate you
they'll berate you
Then pretend to appreciate you
they're obnoxious
And they know just what it
Takes to make you go nuts
You've got nothing left but sighs,
you've got ever crying eyes

You dont feel safe at home
you have no appetite
You're numb right to the bone
you've got ever crying eyes
They'll take a tumble with you
Throw you like you were dice
Until you're black and blue
You've got ever crying eyes

They'll expose you
cause they know you
make you live for the crumbs they throw you
they're ferocious
And they know just what it takes to make your heart rush
All your friends think they're just fine,
but you' ve got ever crying eyes

And they'll beat you
and mistreat you
do all they can to defeat you
They're relentless
And they know that you are weaker and defenseless
Days on end you just wish you could die,
you've got ever crying eyes

© Angie Horvath - Usa